I don’t even know how to start this lol. I wasn’t gonna post anything but I honestly need to get this off my chest because it’s been rattling around in my brain and I feel insane.
So yeah. I think I’m kinda… maybe… falling for a Colombian camboy. Like, an actual live male webcam model I found a couple months ago. I know how that sounds. I know it’s probably not real or whatever, but also… what even is real anymore?
It started as just messing around late one night. I landed on this cam site (you know the ones—tip for tokens, private shows, all that). Wasn’t looking for anything deep. Just curiosity + insomnia + boredom + horniness if I’m being totally honest.
But then he popped up. This gorgeous, funny, super charismatic Colombian guy—smiling like he knows you already. And I don’t know what happened but suddenly I was there every night. Watching him chat, dance, flirt. I started tipping. We started messaging. He started calling me by name.
And now… now I’m in deep.
Like, what do you even call this? It’s not a relationship. But it also doesn’t feel fake. He remembers things I say. He asks how I’m doing. He teases me about my favorite songs. We’ve had late-night convos that honestly felt more honest than some relationships I’ve had.
I keep telling myself, “this is just the game, this is what cam guys do, this is his job,” and I respect that so much. He’s working. He’s good at it. I get that. I really do. The webcam model world is way more layered than I ever knew—there’s a whole rhythm to it. It’s not just about showing skin. It’s connection. It’s performance and presence and managing a room full of thirsty people with a smile.
But… ugh. There’s this other part of me that wonders, like—what if some of it is real? Not even in a romantic fairytale kind of way, just… human. Two people connecting. Even if it’s digital. Even if it’s built on tokens and timing.
I don’t even know what I want from this. I’m not expecting anything. I’m not delusional (I hope?). I’m just weirdly caught in this in-between place of knowing this is mostly a fantasy, but also feeling like it matters. To me, at least.
Anyway. Sorry if this is a mess. Just needed to say it somewhere. Has anyone else been through something like this? Please tell me I’m not the only one out here falling for someone on cam 😅
No sé si esto es amor, pero sí sé que me importas
I’m not expecting anything….good, because most likely he is hetero and only thing you will get is broken heart. camming is a job, that is a performance, he is a performer, but i suppose every person is an individual and anything is possible. even if he is bi or gay or whatever, what makes you think he wants to be with some older dude from USA. you can be his friend,and support him, if that’s your thing, but i advise to enjoy the moment and not to project what you need, and go on a dating app, don’t look for love on cam sites, friendship, good times, a visit or holiday, why not, but not love, be real.